jamiesama

I am a Bachelor of Fine Arts holder with a emphasis in Graphic Design, and a minor in Anthropology. However, my skills are in drawing, digital media, mixed media, textiles and sewing, and customizing dolls faces.

Current Residence: Colorado, Soon to be Georgia.

deviantWEAR sizing preference: Accessories...

Print preference: Matte or luster

Favorite genre of music: I love Music. I breathe it. You will find me listening to Pop and Dance/electronic music most of the time.

Favorite style of art: Just anything now a days. I like emotion in a work. I want to feel it speak to me. Need Variety. I do love saturated colors and vintage feels.

Operating System: Windows 10

Wallpaper of choice: Generally will be gaming backgrounds. Right now it's Dark Souls 3 with the Firekeeper.

Skin of choice: Resin.

Personal Quote: "A life with out love is not a life at all." "The greatest thing to learn is just to love and be loved in return."

Currently most of my time is spent with my current boyfriend via Discord. We voice roleplay and play Dark Souls together. We do most everything together and have actually met in person. After being through an 8 year abusive relationship, where I was raped twice...One with the help of someone I thought was a friend that was done outercourse, and the other supposedly my first time intercourse, I really really cling very heavily to the light he gives me when he can. I have been through a lot and I suffer PTSD, Anxiety and Social Anxiety. I have massive depression that is consistently chronic. Everyday though I am getting better; it has only been a year since he left and I have been removed from the abuse.

Things I enjoyed before like kinks and the like, have since become disgusting to me as I have been tormented and used by my ex fiance due to this. I lost almost all the people that were close to me due to his sociopathic tendencies, lying and manipulation, and isolating me. I was even on the verge of death and suicide because I wasn't eating and well, I didn't think I had anyone to be there for me. I made a lot of mistakes growing up. I made a lot of bad decisions. Many people would say that Grey would be one of them, but in that darkness, Marvin was the light and he was always there for me. He was Grey's best friend at the time, but he sided with me after I gave proof of what he did, told him in detail stories. He was my personal friend through all the pain and grief I endured. I never talked about it. When it finally came out, people were shocked that I kept so silent about it all for so long. I honestly didn't think it mattered.

I am trying to get myself back up and going and doing what I used to love, which is art. It has been a long battle of fighting the depression and darkness to get where I am right now. Hopefully in time I will do art as I used to do, but so far there is only up from here.